2017- Recap

I would like to take the opportunity to recap the year, and thank those of you who followed the year with me.
Thank you to everyone who supports me, in what ever way. Everyone who comments, likes and shares my work, online or in real life, that really means something to me.
So in honor of the last day of 2017, here’s a short poem review. God bless you, and Happy New Year!

2017

Grateful for new places and faces, new cultures and more

Uganda. Albania. None of it asked for

Old challenges, redone. New versions of old

Masks in a new form

Some illustrations and paintings

And stories told.

 

All work and worry

All sickness and joy

Feeling strong, yet lame.

These are all part of the game

 

Where to? God knows

And I know he does

So I thank him

for all that was

And move forward

And trust him with all that follows.

 

 

 

 

 

The Elephant in the Room

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I finally finished the elephant mask! I originally made it as a birthday present for a good friend of mine, but since it took so long, it will now be a big birthday/christmas present. I think it’s the largest mask I’ve ever made, but considering that, it’s quite comfortable to wear.  :)

A few days now, and Christmas is upon us. I am happy about this time of year, but honestly, I am also stressed. The demands of school are high. My health is unpredictable at times, which drains me physically. And in all of this, the expectations I place upon myself as an artist put me under more pressure: There are different issues, but most of all, I don’t know “what I am doing” in a creative sense.
I work on projects and enjoy the process, but if you’d ask me “where I’m going”, I couldn’t really tell you.  I could tell you what I want to reach, but not how to actually get there.

As is, I feel like I’m in a fog, which blocks me from “moving”.  I don’t know where I’m going, which in turn leads to self-doubt.
This doesn’t stop me from creating. But it could make me think I’m “not creative”.
I know that this is a phase that will pass. I also know that self-doubt is part of being an artist. But the process obviously doesn’t feel that great.

I know this isn’t the most uplifting post, but I felt it was important to be honest about this. Especially during Christmas, a holiday where we remember that God was born as a human, as the baby Jesus: Jesus didn’t stay in heaven, but was born into a chaotic, imperfect world, so people could from then on say that “God is with us”. So I can admit that I don’t have it all together, but I know that God is with us, anyway.
In that sense, whether you feel great or not, have a blessed Christmas season, because “God is with us”.